I wanna go to dinner tomorrow night and the thought to ask this kid didn’t even cross my mind.
There’s just certain things I won’t bother wasting my time to ask him.
And frankly, that’s sad.
I feel weak, we’ve been here before
Cuz I feel we keep going back and forth
Maybe it’s over, maybe we’re through
But I honestly can say
I still love you
Maybe we reached the mountain peak
And there’s no more left to climb
And maybe we lost the magic piece
And we’re both too blind to find
Let’s start over
Let’s give love their wings
Let’s start over
Stop fighting about the same old thing
Let’s start over
We can’t let our good love die
Maybe we can start all over
Give love another life
I can see that we’re not happy here
So why would we keep pretending that there’s nothing there
Maybe you like it, well I don’t
And maybe you’ll settle, well I won’t
i hate to admit but this song is the reason behind why i really decided to let go.
i always knew we were at a stand still but i was to afraid to admit it to myself.
on the road back home from VA this song played. dont get me wrong we played the entire album a lot on that road trip but at that moment, the song really hit home.
and i sent the text to my ex we more or less came to an agreement.
he knew it was happening to, it just took one of us to speak up about.
(Source: battlexscars, via simplyyyblessed-deactivated2012)
going to sleep with a smile on my face because my friends niece is doing better.
this just made me so happy.
not at all.
i did not want to come back to NYC today.
not that i fell in love with DC or anything.
i just didnt want to come back to home life and work.
despite the shambles this weekend i was genuinely happy.
as soon as i got on the bus to come home that went out the window.
i genuinely think i’d make a good girlfriend.
you know, once they manage to get past my inability to initially show emotion.
oh and the fact i dont have sex.
today was one of those days where all i wanted was a hug.
and once again i was delivered empty promises of receiving one.
everything annoys me so easily.
i got annoyed early because my fucking phone was vibrating too much.
because instead of sending one text message people feel compelled to text like how they would type on aim, ANNOYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
whatever, im over this.
i dont write much these days.
basically because i have nothing to write about.
and frankly, that sucks.
i was speaking with my co-worker last night and she was trying to talk me into giving relationships another try.
its not so much that i dont want one.
its just that it takes a lot for me to get into one.
i told her about a friend of mine who i know wants to be with me but i cant.
yea he’s cute and he’s an awesome person but i really just dont have those feelings for him and i cant force them.
